le sigh

i wish i loved sex as much as my followers/ the people i follow… 

sex is so damn hard for me, its like my ego doesn’t want to let go or give in and let someone have me.

i know what i like kink wise and by myself it can arouse me

but when i try to get involved in wolf its like my whole ego is screaming no, don’t let anyone claim/take/have you

maybe im afraid of being used

i honestly have no idea

does anyone else ever feel this way?